Away?

I keep asking myself: What is my direction? What should I do? Bla bla bla...

The ring was still held on my finger, but I was so frustrated everytime when I look at it.
I really don't know what should I do...

I talk to aunt, that I want to 'run away', away from everything... Situation get worse when I heard she's crying over the phone too. Am sorry.

Try so hard to stand up strong, try so hard to put a piece of a smile onto my face...
Keep praying, I search nothing but only nightmare.

I was out of control yesterday... yelling, screaming... I can't really remember what've I talk or yell at yesterday. I WAS TOTALLY OUT OF MY MIND!!!
Afraid of losing out, I guess... Afraid of facing the reality, perhaps...

'Away from everything' keep running in my brain... recent rumours, friend's matter, yesterday scene...

I. Really DON'T KNOW What To Do anymore...